Hello my name is Mike, I am a college dropout and aspiring writer. Many things are keeping me from being a successful writer: lack of talent, experience, education; market saturation, possible mental issues, etc. However none of that shit matters because the biggest problem I'm facing right now is a lack of motivation. Any time I feel strongly about writing is met by roadblocks, always caused by me. I won't write something if I feel like it's obvious and unnecessary because anytime I read something obvious and unnecessary I hate it and usually make fun of the person who wrote it. Anything that passes the first roadblock usually requires effort that I can't always devote a lot of time towards, either because of more pressing concerns or because I'm lazy. By the time I would start writing about it, it is no longer topical or I lost what little motivation I had.
I thought joining Gather Your Party would help me regain the motivation to write, and it worked for a while. However, the type of content I want to write conflicts with the type of content they want to publish and also I was horrible at it. My motivation disappeared again, and my role at GYP has become largely passive: editing other writer's articles, acquiring review copies of games, and the occasional short news post.
My current tactic is to try and overcome my fear of writing the painfully obvious by creating a space for me to write whatever. I wanted it to be public-facing so I can get over any fear of exposure and to show off some of it if it's any good. Consider this a disclaimer: The contents of this blog are masturbatory, hence the title. The writer does not take responsibility for any feelings of rage upon being exposed to the inane or pretentious content found within. Enter at your own risk, or better yet, enter later, when I'm ready for you.
I'll let you know.
